Watching anti-gay ads on the internet has become an obsession of mine.  Finally, I understand the fascination with twisted car-wrecks and fist fights.  Apparently some hormone is released in me when I see how truly fucked up people are.  Morbid as it is, it makes me feel good.

How Fucked is that?  Am I alone in this?

Perhaps watching the United States battle over something that seems like such old news, just confirms the primitive nature of their politics and culture to me.  Perhaps, being raised for a time in the US, I get some sick pleasure from knowing that I am happily, a Canadian citizen.  I can’t quite put my finger on it, but time and time again, here I am browsing anti-gay websites, feeding their egos with my presence on their soil.

So I sit here in bed this morning, watching the newest disastrous monstrosity to grace my screen. While other gay men are cuddling in bed with each other, or taking advantage of another beautiful day, I’m sitting here watching the storm clouds come rolling in.

Naively in my dwindling hope, that marriage, for me, might someday actually be a possibility, I try so hard to believe that I’ll figure out how to love someone again.  Naively, I pretend that the pursuit of love these past years has been a breeze, and that I’ve actually enjoyed it.  Sure, there’s been moments, but I’ll admit that dating has just become more difficult and confusing the older that I’ve got.

But at least for me there’s the reality of union.  What it means to me I don’t know.  The idea of marriage to me seems outdated and superfluous.  The only idea of marriage that seems even slightly appealing is the potential for a good party (you see where my priorities are).  But at least it’s a reality.

So good luck to all you homos in the States.  And watch out for the storm clouds, and that terrible unkempt portrayal of a lesbian in the following commercial.

Can you seriously believe that the National Organization for Marriage has the audacity to call themselves a rainbow coalition?

And again, what is with the lesbian?  And what is she talking about?  Does the National Organization for Marriage really believe that they are going to win over the general public by convincing them that there are gay people out there that feel their rights and freedoms are in fact being altered negatively by an expanded set of rights?

Dear god, are there?

Anyways, while watching my acceptable daily dose of mutilated victims, I stumbled across a much healthier form of YouTube perversion.  For some reason YouTube had decided that the following video was somehow related to all the hate propaganda of an undereducated and confused nation that I’d been watching all morning.

Perhaps it is YouTube’s way of telling me that I shold be looking on the lighter side.